seha, naja.. do i have problem? ._.

i sat beside my roomate Seha, yesterday. She, the awesome girl that i ever knew. Dedicated. Respected person. Nice. Kind-hearted. Cheerful. 

i started to ask her, "Seha do i have problem?"

She looked at me with serious facial expression and started to move her lips.

"Tiii, why you asked me? You should ask yourself."

i smiled. :) why am i asking if i know the truth?

She said, "Tiiii, Allah test you." 

i looked at her eyes deeply, trying to guess what is her point to say those words to me.

She added, "Allah test you with luxurious. He gives you bounties, succeed, happiness, health and others."

so, is this my problem?

She replied, "Tiii, Allah gives others hardship, failure, sickness or sadness. They think those are their problems. They start to get closure to Allah, need Allah the most in their life. And you? Allah gives you bounties. Do you feel you are returning to Him? Thanks Him? Do you?"

dark brown iris went down. agreeing the statement. thinking the questions.

jazakillahu khairan kathira Seha. :')

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done with du'a after maghrib prayer, Naja came to me with smile on her face and said, "Cerita."

hehe~ i really miss this session. 

i actually waiting for her to finish her du'a just before that. there are lots of things to say to her. yes, she did, but, she stand and go. heart broken :p 

i sat on the praying mat and thought to much. again.. do i have problem? until she came to me.

Cerita~ 

i forgot everything that i wanted to share with her. then, i asked her a question. a question that she never knew i would ask. i just knew the truth that she hid something from us. i respect her, so i asked her directly, i tried to understand her. i won't tell anyone. i promise to myself even i did not utter the words to her.

breathing deeply.

what am i going to share with her today?

hmmm, smiling :)))

you know Naja? as always, i'm stalking mr. MB's twitter. 

kuch kuch hota hai~ O.o

reading a tweet and thinking why did he use "Ya Fattah" after saying something related to problem?? Allahu Rabbi...

try to say it, just try.

how do you feel? (muka penuh harapan)

she said, "i do it later, hehe"

ohhh, okay. hehe~

hmmm, actually i realised that when we say "Ya Fattah" all of sudden we can feel that our heart is like to open. i don't know how to say it in english -_____-" sebenarnya kita akan terasa yang hati kita terbuka, rasa lapang, rasa lega.. hewhew

so again, in real life, anything we learnt, anything we knew, if we feel nothing its nothing. 

feel it everyone! :DDD Allah never let us down. He knows best! ^_^ Thank you Allah.

jazakillahu khairal jazaa' Naja. uhibbuki fillah ~

#pray4ummah